"Unnamed"

inspiration - Into the wild (movie)




lyf's ol abt "wat u need".,"wat u want".,"wat u do"., nd  "wat u achieve".....



u wonder n wonder,
all around on a wheel less cart,
just like a lonely shadow,
in a city of no heart..

u need an escape,
an escape to peace,
escape from your murder,
everyday, pointless at an ease..

escape from d yelling,
escape to find life,
escape to find yourself,
deep deep inside..

extinct from d world,
to live in a parallel one,
created in aggression,
to see whats your worth..

just to be somewhere,
that comforts n makes u alive,
the destination, d goal,
miracle of life..

to b at your own,
gave up everything u have,had,,
lost around somewhere,
forgetting what could happen next..

came around some unnamed relations,
that values beyond a price,
even more than your named ones,
that felts like your bare hands on ice..

now, reaches the state of place,
that gains yourself some pride,
but soon that happiness turns worthless,,
once found there's no one to share that prize...


"Happiness is only real when shared"

"Dark passanger " (part 2)

the passanger is angry.,, frustrated.,, at a verge of doing something., anything can happen., something must happen to calm it down.. the eagerness in me to know what could happen has disappeared now.,, coz the surprises i get are unremarkable.., well.,, m enjoying them.!!!


m waiting for the time when i'll start considering myself as the dark passanger.,, bt it seems like thats never gonna happen., coz there is a part of me thats never gonna die... its like m looking in a mirror but the image is totally different.,, its energetic.,, it seems happy.,, well, surely happier than me.!!!!


m on an event., surrounded with people all around. its more like a vocation for my passanger, having the opportunity to react..! I can easily look through these people and their own passangers., to me its like they are walking around with an ID card on their faces..,, funny, right.!! :)  ....., bt still the feeling of getting left alone even though u hav people all around., and 'so called friends' is unbearable.!!! its like u give. and give and give and what u get is totally not worth it.!! no matter how much u try to fit in., how much u compromise., u just cant get through., and then every1's like.,, " yeah., we dont give a fuck.!!"

now i had it all., up to here., i have him., my passanger., thats my energy., and for the first time i've realized, that's who, whose company i really enjoy.!! bt its been so long i've enjoyed his company., and the frustration is getting deeper and deeper., m drowning into the well.!!! well., i surely miss him right now.!!!!!

"THE BARNACLE"

Dedicated to all the lovers of "BARNEY STINSON"

it is going to be LEGEN (wait for it)..... DARY.!! LEGENDARY.!!!

people wearing off the rack,
came along and gone,,
bt i got suited up,
since the day i was born... ;)

m about to play a stupid gig,
nd the hottie has been detected,,
beware ladies n gentlemen,,
coz the challenge has been accepted... ;)

m awesome., as awesome as i m,
the woman across the bar could even break,,
wow...,, did u feel that,,
we just had a WAT UP quake.!! ;)

shit, d moment has arrived,
and the clock is ticking,,
oh god..,, plz save me from this torture,
its the day of SLAPSGIVING..!! :'(

to run away in the morning,
is the first thing i have to do,,
coz people.,, night always come again,
nd there lyies a new size which is due.. ;)   (if u know wat i mean..)

there were some medieval times,
when this art was the hardest prick,,
then came along a guy named BARNEY,
who did it with a stupidest magic trick.. TRUE STORY.!!

when ur sad.,, stop being sad,nd be awesome instead.!! ;)

the electronics drift

inpiration - my "PDSC" book...

Dedicated to all my electronic engg mates...!!!!  ;)

 "lyf is lyk an ac signal,
      ups n downs,
         evry single cycle..."


m opening my books fr preparation,
bt all i cn thnk is u,,
i knw wat m writing is stupid,
atleast it keeps me away fr smtym or few..  ;)


filters say they attenuate frequency,
it makes me choose u,,
as i remembr ur care n closeness,,
attenuates my fear of loosing u..


nw hr cms the capacitors,
dat wrks jst lyk ur eyes,,
gives me only happiness(ac),
nd blocks d tears wenevr i used to cry(dc)..


i knw ur hw ur luv,
lifts me higher lyk a clamper,,
bt nw d pain of ur absense,
clipps my heart lyk a clipper..


transistors conducts in only one region,
it reminds me of my choice,,
hw i cud go into saturation,
evrytym i hear ur voice..


nw m afraid of -ve bias,
alwayz remembr this thing,,
as it makes me go into cut-off,,
nd 0.7 will b very difficult to bring..


nw i've completed all my syllabus,
with jst u in my head,,
woof, m soo tired,
nw i wnt electronics on my bread..!!!!!

the dark passanger

lyf has bn weird lately...!! going thru sm uncanny situations.., thnk lyk i've bn on an  unplanned jouney.,  widout n end.,,dnt knw wid whom....   thngs r terriftng..!  doing thngs i've nvr dn befre.. m lyk a partner in crime.,, m scared.,,good scared.,, nvr wished to b hr bt its new ..,, smthgns interesting.,, m happy.,, nd dats weird too...... !!!!


der ws a flick,, wat jst happnd, bn able to realize dat smthngs in me,, smthng dat encourages my eagerness towadrs thngs,,d thngs i've bn doing,, dnt knw wat is it, its nt my hobby,, bt its smthng i wanna do,, smthng i enjoy doing,, smthng i must do, which d devil makes me do....!!!

m shocked!!! dealing wid it is becmng quite easy nw,,lyk i ws born fr dis,, bt d truth seems i ws born wid dis,, may b bcoz its in my soul,,may b bcoz dis is wat i m..,, seems its a common thng,, every1 has its own,, d thng,, dat makes u feel enpowered, recharged., shwing u wat ur capable of, making u thngs u cnt imagine!!!


nw sm msgs ,, sm reasons r bn poured into my mind,,  directly,, shwing me wat im doing,, wat i've becm.,, nd wat i m....  making me realize wat i care abt,,evn if i dnt,, bt i hav to tak sm kind of an approval dat., dat i do.... evn if i myself dnt knw d anws,,my mind is jst swearling arnd,... may b d ans lies hr itself,, in me.,,may b dis is d only resn fr survival,, a resn towards lyf,,a resn dat makes me feel im still alive.,,,  bt nw d questn arises  "wat is it"??    sm mite call it LUV,, sm anger,,sm guilt,, fr sm1 its a partner in crime,, i call it "d dark passanger" ...!!!!

the journey.!!

let d wrds flow,,
jst clear up ur mind..
i hate dis part of relationshp,
still cn do nethng to stop u cryng...

i jst wish i cud realize wat i've dn,,
and turn arnd nd tak it ol bck..
or u cud hav let me knw,,
coz so nw m ol alone..

u told me a million tyms,,
dat dis little red thng belongs to u..
nw tell me wat m gonna do,,
coz m nthng mre dan a heartless nw..

nw listen to d air arnd me,,
u'll notice smthng strnge..
dat mite tickle sm1 away,,
bt dere'll b nthng u cud resist..

ders a ton of thngs dat tym cnt erase,,
i jst hav to live wid dat..
its nt dat i cnt,,
its jst dat i dnt wnt to..

nw hr v r at d end of our journey,,
ready to fall apart..
watevr u do is fair,,
it'll follow my crazy heart...

i remember...

i remember d time.....


wid dose weirdness on ur face,,
nd ol d eagerness jst to meet....

dose pinchng during d drive,,
nd ol d jealousy during d walk...

dose touches under d table,,
nd ol d closeness on d couch...

dose tiny drops u shed,,
nd my luv to wipe dm off...

i always remembr dat tme,,
coz smwhr i realized dat i've comitted a crime...

dose unspoken words i shared,,
nd ur getting dm rite along...

nd ol dose kisses in d park,,
under d moonlite nd d stars..

nd also d tme wid dat letter,,
dat finally ripped away my heart....

i will alwaz remembr dose moments ,,
coz i luv u,, nd i miss u my swtheart.