Dark Passenger - A Turn Of Event

A worldly angel passes and pointed towards a path that I need to follow with her. Smiles and directs me to the way opposite to what I had been following until now. Shocking, Isn’t it. It’s obvious I gotta believe her, I mean she is an angel sent from heavenly clouds which are bound to guide you towards the right direction. I stood there with an urge inside to do something. To get up and just spread my arms around. Felt like “to get up, and unlock that bloody door”. The moment I raised my hands, it felt like my hands had begun to shrink and the power, which is acting upon me, is nothing like I have felt before. There was a strong force, which stops me in believing and forces me to keep going. It’s my Passenger who does not want me to quit what we had started together long time ago.

It’s the first time I have doubted my passenger for what he has put me in a pickle of a choice I need to make between the heavenly way and the passenger’s path who has been there with me though some tough times. There I was about to dismantle with my passenger and replenish my new path when I turned around to see her gone. And that was it. Stood there dispirited more than with grief to have lost the opportunity to strive in a different direction for a change. Don’t know who can impart the strength to recover from such earthly angels. All I have gained is percipience to continue forward, with my passenger along side with me as always. #Dark Passenger          

    

-Parminder Arneja

The realization of the importance of my “Dark Passenger” (Part III)

A new city, a new life, with a same cold hearted body. A very complicated chapter is about to start, and I am still waiting to get my hands on the book. Everything is blurred now, it’s like am reading without my glasses. Several questions are there, am I able to read through this new chapter in my life? Am I reading the right way? Will I be able to get through? What if I couldn’t? What if am stuck in between? I have lost the count of days and more importantly I think I have lost the intensity to do that.

Now I really need someone to answer my questions once and for all. Someone? Who might be that? Am I right? Is that the Dark Passenger am searching for again? As per my past, passenger was always the one to get me past through times like these. It’s been a while though. May be that’s the issue.

Nowadays, I stand in front of the mirror, and I feel like something is missing, the energy? May be my soul? I have to opt to start interacting with myself more often, else a part of myself which I may have left somewhere through my journey will start to fade away, and it’ll be very difficult to recover from that kind of loss.

Is it really that hard? Am I the only one? It’s pretty obvious that I am getting these answers all by myself. Got to re invoke the energy by getting back the dark passenger. As now I could realize that it’s always been him that could get me back on my feet and get my butt at the place where it belongs. The things which at some point in the past could have meant the world now seems pointless. Still I try to find that joy in little things even if it lasts for couple of days or so and then search of a new one. 

Sometimes I think that the things I have done in the past, the sins I have taken upon myself, would I be able to recover from that ever. Realization is the only thing I have right now, and it’s better it came late rather than never. So, Now I just gotta try and fix what was wrong. It’s like you gotta do what u gotta do. And that only can be done with the help of my passenger.