The realization of the importance of my “Dark Passenger” (Part III)

A new city, a new life, with a same cold hearted body. A very complicated chapter is about to start, and I am still waiting to get my hands on the book. Everything is blurred now, it’s like am reading without my glasses. Several questions are there, am I able to read through this new chapter in my life? Am I reading the right way? Will I be able to get through? What if I couldn’t? What if am stuck in between? I have lost the count of days and more importantly I think I have lost the intensity to do that.

Now I really need someone to answer my questions once and for all. Someone? Who might be that? Am I right? Is that the Dark Passenger am searching for again? As per my past, passenger was always the one to get me past through times like these. It’s been a while though. May be that’s the issue.

Nowadays, I stand in front of the mirror, and I feel like something is missing, the energy? May be my soul? I have to opt to start interacting with myself more often, else a part of myself which I may have left somewhere through my journey will start to fade away, and it’ll be very difficult to recover from that kind of loss.

Is it really that hard? Am I the only one? It’s pretty obvious that I am getting these answers all by myself. Got to re invoke the energy by getting back the dark passenger. As now I could realize that it’s always been him that could get me back on my feet and get my butt at the place where it belongs. The things which at some point in the past could have meant the world now seems pointless. Still I try to find that joy in little things even if it lasts for couple of days or so and then search of a new one. 

Sometimes I think that the things I have done in the past, the sins I have taken upon myself, would I be able to recover from that ever. Realization is the only thing I have right now, and it’s better it came late rather than never. So, Now I just gotta try and fix what was wrong. It’s like you gotta do what u gotta do. And that only can be done with the help of my passenger.